Life off the road

People tends to think that when they come back from a 'journey' or having done something which is out of 'the norm', they usually want to do something different, whether with continuation or without, to their previous 'feat'. While having accomplished a long journey is not a big deal, I personally think that that's fair and fine to have such thinking because that means that one had set up something to 'seek' when they embarked on a journey or along the journey. There is something which is brewing deep within which is waiting to be heeded. There might be a desire deep inside their heart to seek a change, be it successfully or not.

People might expect you to change upon completing a long journey. I totally aware and agree with this because that’s the stereotype thinking of the society – An input putting into a factory must deliver an even greater and more useful output. However, I refuse to ‘change’ according to what the society expects but I’m willing to let something I collected on the road changes me to whatever character it could be. I think I have made it 'let it be as it would be', if not compromise, when it comes to the matter of whether I have changed in any single aspect of being a man after coming back from a 'long journey'. Sometimes when I can't get out from a bottleneck, I just try to comfort myself that things happen when it happens and you will learn it when it happens. There is no point to waste time trying to attest something out of your ability. However, it's discouraging to tell you honestly that I'm still at the crossroad, reluctantly to get back to the routine life that everybody does, trying to find and/or plan something that suit me better. Sometimes negative thinking will hit me and drag me to the edge but what to do? Perhaps I should think out of the box where getting back to so-called routine life isn't that bad as I always think. Routine life could be exuberant. All is just the matter of how you see your life. I almost 'fall' back to the routine life when I made my visit to Singapore. My friend recommended a job for me which is to work in Maldives. I have almost closed my eyes and made up my mind to go as that matches one of the items in my list which is to work and live in Africa. But after a deliberate consideration, I decided to put it under KIV. The timing is so right that it suddenly becomes so not right.

Right now I allow myself to spend as shorter time as possible with all the findings collected along my journey. I need some time to 'confront' with those and I truly and sincerely think that I will be benefited from those eventually. Like what a friend of mine quoted from Steve Jobs’s one of the many speeches: Everything happens, the small dots in your life, will make up the 'line' of you in your future. Every little things happen, which you do not know how it will affect your life currently, it turns out that someday in the future it's these little things that makes up your life then. Hope we all benefit from this.

Un Abrazo~~